Friendship Rant... Sorry In Advance
Screw childhood friendships. If people don't treat you with respect, or are honest with you, or even treat you like a decent person then why be around them? Even if you have known them your whole life is it worth it having them lie to you over and over, or keep trying to make plans only to have them canceled anytime between an hour later to an hour before? No. It's time to take my happiness into account too, and I haven't been happy, I have been frustrated, angry, sad and everything you feel when a person is ready to fall out of your life. This person in particular hardly talks to me, and when she see's that we are falling apart she comes running back its a cycle of; friendship, 2 months of no contact, her saying sorry and that she needs a friend, and me saying fine I'm here for you. But I am done, why should I let someone who hardly notices me when I am here and then when she needs me even if it's been too long comes running back? I have had enough. I am done.
Friends are supposed to help you do things and be excited and even if they don't want to do it they should tell you then and there. I'm sick of trying and giving and nothing happens. I am done. It has been a fight for years to stay nice and friends to another, so I am saying goodbye. Trust me I have thought this through, just like everything else I do, I don't do things on a whim very often and when I do it's because I have been thinking about it, the only part of a whim for me is when I am going to do it. If I am talking about doing something you can bet your butt that it will happen. So I don't need friends who don't know that, and who don't support me or trust me or feel comfortable around me.
I have cried over this, but I am done. I don't care anymore. I refuse to hurt. I refuse to cry. I refuse to let them back into my life until I am ready again, not when they are. They have been selfish so I am going to be for once. They can do what they want and they can say what they want. I am done. I deleted them off social media a while ago and they didn't notice.... What does that tell you about this so-called friendship?
I'm sorry for the late post. I'll post again tonight though so don't worry. Thanks for understanding I needed a vent because I just lost the only person I ever could vent too.
~JTTFTCTCLO~
Friends are supposed to help you do things and be excited and even if they don't want to do it they should tell you then and there. I'm sick of trying and giving and nothing happens. I am done. It has been a fight for years to stay nice and friends to another, so I am saying goodbye. Trust me I have thought this through, just like everything else I do, I don't do things on a whim very often and when I do it's because I have been thinking about it, the only part of a whim for me is when I am going to do it. If I am talking about doing something you can bet your butt that it will happen. So I don't need friends who don't know that, and who don't support me or trust me or feel comfortable around me.
I have cried over this, but I am done. I don't care anymore. I refuse to hurt. I refuse to cry. I refuse to let them back into my life until I am ready again, not when they are. They have been selfish so I am going to be for once. They can do what they want and they can say what they want. I am done. I deleted them off social media a while ago and they didn't notice.... What does that tell you about this so-called friendship?
I'm sorry for the late post. I'll post again tonight though so don't worry. Thanks for understanding I needed a vent because I just lost the only person I ever could vent too.
~JTTFTCTCLO~
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